.+. Serene .+.

"everything's over..
am i wrong to letting out what i'm feeling inside??
weak? backstabbing you? obsessed till my life's affected? gaining sympathy??
so that's how you've been thinking of me all this while..
thanks for not making me a fool and dont know everything's that going on.
i finally understand what you're thinking....
will respect your every decision, like always.
and i know i dont regret knowing you as a friend."

you want it to be over between us?
fine, i'll go with it
funny how i thought we were so close last time,
thinking that we wont be like others who're having problem with their BFF
and now this thing is happening on us.
who to blame?
just blaming myself for not understanding you enough
and just supporting your decision all the time
and dont even know what you're actually thinking inside..
now that i finally understand,
but it's already too late..

realised it's not a wise decision to tell outsiders about our real feelings
but honestly, i dont blame anyone at all
and sad to say that i'm still trying to search for the wrong words that i've said
till can be taken as 'backstabbing you??'
i hate myself to be easily influenced by you,
from the group that i once supported,
until it can turn to the group i hate the most
they're not bad, i knoww..
just that it's disappointing to think that you're liking them back after there's one person that has been influenced by you to hating them
T_T
right, it's wise not to care about all this
glad you're not also.

"regret for buying the tickets"
has been a nightmare to me everytime when i thought of this words at night
it's sad to know how you've changed within this one week
and, it's all because of me??
recalling the moment how hard i've persuaded my dad to let me attend this concert,
partly because of wanting to watch Eunhae together with you
now i'll train myself to continue looking forward to it and enjoy the concert alone...

nothing can describe how i'm feeling right now..
it's just..
too hurt